I’ve fallen out of love with writing.
My writing energy evaporated. There one minute and the next, vanished into the mist.
I have an addictive personality and rode the reading, writing and blogging wave for several years. All waves crash in the end.
I opened my scrivener file recently and saw that the last piece of editing I did was TEN months ago. Not good.
It’s not that I’m finished with the stories and they certainly don’t appear to be finished with me. I continue to carry a notebook wherever I go and make copious amounts of notes on plot and characters.
I’m still having fresh ideas, some related to my current WIP and others brand new. My wife is encouraging me to write some children’s books based on stories I come up with.
Sitting down to write seems harder than ever and I know I need to treat this like I would any job. I don’t particularly want to do the day job, but I drive to the office every day. Do my hours. Put in my best efforts.
I’ve never been good at focusing on the editing. I know it’s an essential part of the process and I do know that I need to take the hit and force myself to finish the damned book!
There are some plot holes that I want to correct. Some issues or clichés that I must correct before I take the next step.
I wonder whether fear of failure is preventing me sitting down and finishing this book. Maybe that is what is holding me back.
Shock, horror. A writer with self-doubt! 🙂
Probably more to do with the fact that I’m a lazy sod and generally settle for the path of least resistance and for the last few years, that hasn’t been writing. Netflix has too many good shows to watch, there are too many good video games to play, waaayyyy too much live sport to feast on.
So, what do I do?
I asked myself two simple questions.
Am I done? Can I walk away?
I might have fallen out of love with writing. I might never recreate the excitement and the buzz of those years when I was writing, editing and reading like there was no tomorrow.
Am I done?
My answer was simple. No.
Can I walk away?
I know I need to prove it. Blogging is helping me write again. Helping organise my time to sit down and plan, write and edit something.
Thanks for reading.
I was getting very frustrated with my inability to get work done, so I started a new small habit a few months ago. My daily habit was that I had to write 250 words (a double-spaced single page) before I did anything else. It could be anything from poetry to a journal entry, just something. For a couple of weeks, that’s all I wrote, but it hooked me back into the joy of writing and now I’m writing much more. Sometimes we just need a little kindling to get the fire going again. Best wishes to you.
That sounds like a good plan. I might try that. Thanks, Michelle
Baby steps and a blog post is back. If it helps to know; i miss your writing. Welcome back my friend.
I already seem to have blinked and 2 months have gone by!
Editing? I HATE it! I want to write and have done with it – but alas, I can’t. The only thing I hate more is marketing…Welcome back, sounds like you have fodder for lots of writing – trying putting some of it in a blog!
I am trying!
You’re back Pete and I did wonder where you were hiding. You have written what I feel about writing. Even more so about Netflix and even Sky Atlantic. Too many top shows. Catch The Tunnel on SA, or maybe not if you want to write. It’s a very binge show….My writing, well, on #12 book, but one minute writing, then next marketing the other books on social media. I guess I am that kite. Keep at it buddy. Now to write a few hundred words before I go and sleep and dream of typing THE END! Night!
Haha thanks, David. Too much sport to watch as well 🙂 Book #12, wow. One would be great at this point for me. I’ll keep at it. 🙂
I think there are a load of us who started out at the same time and are dragging ourselves through mud at present, with various degrees of success at finishing projects. We’re lucky really – we don’t rely on the income from our books. So, carry on doing whatever you feel works best for you. The mojo will come back, just when you’ve got that unstoppable story that has to come out onto paper.
The hardest thing will be typing the first word of it…
(Have you joined the Insecure Writers Support Group yet? Posts every first Wednesday of the month. Cathartic.)
Thanks, Jemima. I have seen other posts on the Insecure Writers Support Group. I might have to give that a go. A deadline might do the trick
May I be so brazen as to say that perhaps it is a good thing you have fallen out of love with it but that you don’t want to give up.
I think that reflects a more balanced relationship with writing. If you think of writing as a “girl” that you first start dating, your feelings are likely a lot more carefree and lighthearted. The early stages of any kind of relationship you don’t worry as much about where things are going. You simply enjoy the moment, as long as you can, until that relationship shifts in one direction or another.
I think our relationship with writing evolves in a similar way. After a certain period of time, you know what rejection feels like. You’ve jumped through a thousand hoops with writing and editing. You’ve tried all sorts of different methods. And yet here you are, announcing you still won’t give up. You’ve grown as a writer, Pete, and your writing attitude has changed with that growth. In a good, more serious, more stable, more dedicated way.
“For better or for worse.” Right???
So I wouldn’t be so quick to assume this is a negative transition. Try looking at it as a positive one!
You may be so brazen!
I’d not thought of it that way and I do think you’re right. Hopefully perseverance pays off and I can resume the pursuit of finishing the book!
I had another thought, Pete. You could download and learn Scrivener. THAT is a challenge but I’ll bet by the time you’re finished you’ll be more than ready to put something in the program… 😉
Damn Pete, you sound like me! I got tiered of editing so I decided to finish two short stories I had outlined. Almost done with the second one. I have been getting the itch to go back ad finish revisions on my novel, once this one goes to my group for review. You know what’s coming now. Best advice I ever got, Just sit down and write something, anything, a letter to yourself or one of your imaginary friends. ;-). I do like some of the suggestions in the comments too.