Where has my writing energy gone?

I’ve fallen out of love with writing.

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My writing energy evaporated. There one minute and the next, vanished into the mist.

I have an addictive personality and rode the reading, writing and blogging wave for several years. All waves crash in the end.

I opened my scrivener file recently and saw that the last piece of editing I did was TEN months ago. Not good.

It’s not that I’m finished with the stories and they certainly don’t appear to be finished with me. I continue to carry a notebook wherever I go and make copious amounts of notes on plot and characters.

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I’m still having fresh ideas, some related to my current WIP and others brand new. My wife is encouraging me to write some children’s books based on stories I come up with.

Sitting down to write seems harder than ever and I know I need to treat this like I would any job. I don’t particularly want to do the day job, but I drive to the office every day. Do my hours. Put in my best efforts.

I’ve never been good at focusing on the editing. I know it’s an essential part of the process and I do know that I need to take the hit and force myself to finish the damned book!

There are some plot holes that I want to correct. Some issues or clichés that I must correct before I take the next step.

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I wonder whether fear of failure is preventing me sitting down and finishing this book. Maybe that is what is holding me back.

Shock, horror. A writer with self-doubt! 🙂

Probably more to do with the fact that I’m a lazy sod and generally settle for the path of least resistance and for the last few years, that hasn’t been writing. Netflix has too many good shows to watch, there are too many good video games to play, waaayyyy too much live sport to feast on.

So, what do I do?

I asked myself two simple questions.

Am I done? Can I walk away?

I might have fallen out of love with writing. I might never recreate the excitement and the buzz of those years when I was writing, editing and reading like there was no tomorrow.

Am I done?

My answer was simple. No.

Can I walk away?

Also, no.

I know I need to prove it. Blogging is helping me write again. Helping organise my time to sit down and plan, write and edit something.

Baby steps.

Thanks for reading.

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About Pete Denton

I'm a writer working my way through the redrafts of a British crime novel. I also write short stories, flash fiction and some screen writing. Check out my blog for more.
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6 Responses to Where has my writing energy gone?

  1. I was getting very frustrated with my inability to get work done, so I started a new small habit a few months ago. My daily habit was that I had to write 250 words (a double-spaced single page) before I did anything else. It could be anything from poetry to a journal entry, just something. For a couple of weeks, that’s all I wrote, but it hooked me back into the joy of writing and now I’m writing much more. Sometimes we just need a little kindling to get the fire going again. Best wishes to you.

  2. Baby steps and a blog post is back. If it helps to know; i miss your writing. Welcome back my friend.

  3. noelleg44 says:

    Editing? I HATE it! I want to write and have done with it – but alas, I can’t. The only thing I hate more is marketing…Welcome back, sounds like you have fodder for lots of writing – trying putting some of it in a blog!

  4. Jemima Pett says:

    I think there are a load of us who started out at the same time and are dragging ourselves through mud at present, with various degrees of success at finishing projects. We’re lucky really – we don’t rely on the income from our books. So, carry on doing whatever you feel works best for you. The mojo will come back, just when you’ve got that unstoppable story that has to come out onto paper.
    The hardest thing will be typing the first word of it…
    (Have you joined the Insecure Writers Support Group yet? Posts every first Wednesday of the month. Cathartic.)

  5. May I be so brazen as to say that perhaps it is a good thing you have fallen out of love with it but that you don’t want to give up.

    I think that reflects a more balanced relationship with writing. If you think of writing as a “girl” that you first start dating, your feelings are likely a lot more carefree and lighthearted. The early stages of any kind of relationship you don’t worry as much about where things are going. You simply enjoy the moment, as long as you can, until that relationship shifts in one direction or another.

    I think our relationship with writing evolves in a similar way. After a certain period of time, you know what rejection feels like. You’ve jumped through a thousand hoops with writing and editing. You’ve tried all sorts of different methods. And yet here you are, announcing you still won’t give up. You’ve grown as a writer, Pete, and your writing attitude has changed with that growth. In a good, more serious, more stable, more dedicated way.

    “For better or for worse.” Right???

    So I wouldn’t be so quick to assume this is a negative transition. Try looking at it as a positive one!

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